Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Under the Sea

Looking at a Jacques Cousteau book at work today

Thursday, August 20, 2015

self trust.

Number one thing I am working on currently is self trust.

It seems so weird that it has taken me this long. But really, anxiety can have a devastating effect on your intuition and can make you question the things you do all the time. You will intuitively know that you should make a particular decision for yourself but the fact you are anxious makes you re-examine and question it over and over and over.

Building self-trust, for me, it going to have to be a long process of suffering and holding my anxiety and then watching the world more carefully to see how much my anxiety in projecting on to it.

Trusting the beauty that is inside of me when I am facing things that scare me is the hardest thing. I tend to discredit the glowing person that I can be when I am happy.

When I am happy, life is good just where it stands and I can accept whatever there is as neither good nor bad. But when I am anxious, I have a hard time doing this for myself and people who don't understand anxiety don't really have compassion for that.

That is why self trust has been hard because I have denied myself self-compassion about where my struggles are. I see myself as the only one who is having a hard time and I don't see that people from all walks struggle with their own form of anxiety and have their own issues that hurt them everyday.

Self trust will put me in a better place. Getting into the present and out of my head will put me in a better place.

When you do things out of anxiety it can be hard not to feel shame. But what I definitely am learning is that you will stay stuck unless you put one foot in front of the other.

There is nothing I can do to change my past and the mistakes I have made or the shame that anxiety has made me feel.

All I can do is make my present vibrant and amazing. That is taking one step forward instead of allowing myself to become stuck.

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

embracing concepts.

These are the ideas I am trying to embrace to get through my anxiety.

Radical Acceptance.
stop labeling things and experiences as "good" or "bad". They just ARE.

Present Mindfulness.
find joy in this very moment. The past is done. 

Practice Gratitude.
focus your energy on what is amazing in your life versus what you don't have.

Trust the flow.
let the flow create solutions and your path. Stick with fear instead of running. Trust that the universe is good.

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

in the moment.

When you are washing the dishes, washing the dishes must be the most important thing in your life. Just as when you are drinking tea, drinking tea must be the most important thing in your life. Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the whole world revolves—slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future. Live the actual moment. Only this actual moment is life.
— Thich Nhat Hanh

Combat baby.

The wonderfully natural way I combat my anxiety. Mint/chamomile tea with 4 full droppers of Valerian tincture added. It's AMAZING

way behind.

Listened to my friend, Aaron Roche's album. Its not new anymore. I am way behind.

Still makes me happy :)


I love this idea so much! Consistent, sustainable, concrete goals.

embrace the philosophy of small, continuous improvement

"While Kaizen was originally developed to help businesses improve and thrive, it’s just as applicable to our personal lives, and it’s the antidote to perpetual, puke-inducing rides on the self-improvement roller coaster. Instead of trying to make radical changes in a short amount of time, just make small improvements every day that will gradually lead to the change you want. Each day, just focus on getting 1% better in whatever it is you’re trying to improve. That’s it. Just 1%. "

Read more here: Art of Manliness <<<