Wednesday, March 30, 2011

So! I am working on my Spring cover album!
and getting up enough courage to do some open mics!!!

Here is my list so far:

Umbrella
Just breathe
Borderline
Like a Stone
The smiths song

YES I know. super descriptive.

I think I am going to name it KARAOKE
very appropriate. its kind of morphed from pop songs to "songs that you would expect from a singer-songwriter.

Anyways..
consequently, I have been learning a song by Pearl Jam called "Just Breathe"

I am baffled by Edder Vedder. How are his inflections just right to make the song come alive. I tried an tried to match it with my recording and no dice. Maybe it will happen... maybe not. He is amazing though...

You know I noticed something about myself. I tend to "look over fences". Never satisfied with playing in my own yard, I always yearn to be doing what people are doing their own........ missing big opportunities to be awesome in and of myself. The grass is always greener. I get so into watching and trying to force myself into being a part of someone else's stuff that I forget that I could be doing something awesome of my own... and if I did maybe other people would start looking over the fence and wanting to be a part of what I am doing... I guess sometimes I tend to think that I can't go do stuff if I don't have a boyfriend or a friend or... I don't know why I keep holding myself back. I want to make my stuff so compelling that it draws people to me, they ACTUALLY WANT TO be my boyfriend... friend.. collaborator..

So enough of wishing others would make something I like. I'm going to make it myself!
We shall see.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

7 Successful Steps for Sahale


OR things Sahale needs to work on...

1. Thou shalt not giggle to:
a. break the tension
b. avoid someone else's embarrassment
c. to make someone feel comfortable
d. to be apologetic

If you wanna be a rockstar you gotta give off the feeling of being one..
Or... no one will take you seriously.

2. Thou shalt be direct and clear.
a. ask for what you need. make no excuses.
b. be straightforward in manner... don't let people make assumptions about what you
mean or your attitude about it.

You wanna direct a horde of people, you have to be able to be direct and clear. Work will get done a lot smoother! If you are straightforward no one will have to fill in the blanks, make decision for you. Don't mistake straightforwardness with being "uncool" or a "hard-ass", people will admire you if are not only confident but decisive.. you empower them with the information.

3. Thou shalt keep everything organized.

Self explanatory. Information is useless unless accessible. Time is too precious to be wasted. Just keep it together! haha

4. Thou shalt always be a servant and maintain a good attitude.

Remember, it doesn't matter where you are in the totem pole. You are ALWAYS a servant. Even at the top you are a servant to your audience and craft. Don't be an asshole to them. Treat them right.

5. Thou shalt never take anything personally when:
a. you are critiqued
b. yelled at in the heat of the moment
c. its just business

You have to weigh what you demand in terms of respect. As long as your co-workers are respectful don't take a working situation personally. Also trust in variables. There are probably a lot of things going on that you don't know about that are effecting the situation.

6. Thou shalt keep things on a business level.
a. don't get too personally entangled. Don't let people get to you there.
b. see your relationship as mutually beneficial. If it stops being so, don't stay
c. don't get in the middle of office drama. It will sap you emotionally.

Business relationships cannot hurt you if you keep them at an impersonal distance. You are here to get work done. Let the friendship aspect grow slowly, if it is going to at all, but don't get too entangled in the meantime. Chances are they are doing the same thing.

7. Thou shalt BE YOURSELF.

Don't try to be the business-y professional all the time. Life is going to go on if everything doesn't go exactly as planned. Don't take yourself too seriously.

The biggest and best thing you have to offer is that you are you and no one else.
See your quirks for the benefits they may contain. No one is asking you to be a robot.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

analyzation





PHASE 2 // mise en scene


okay. I'm working on screenwriting. a dismal task.. since that is not my skill set..
Watched several movies that really got me thinking.

The Ice Storm
Dead Ringers
Breaking the Waves

//Boys Don't Cry nearly killed me.

Now I realize I need to read scripts of the films that contain the mark I am trying to hit. So I downloaded Black Swan, Mulholland Drive.... Revolutionary Road...... yes, I know, majorly depressing.


BUT no. 2 on my docket is to work on my ideas with mise en scene and sequence breakdown.

Sights. Sounds. Imagery lists.

How do my favorite artist construct these worlds?

When I was in high school, I broke down a scene from Pirates of the Caribbean to see how the scene was constructed. The scene included action as well as dialogue, so it was really really awesome when I started seeing patterns. A lot things that I learn about blocking, I learned before coming to film school by some of those exercises... granted I didn't know how to practically apply them until I tried and failed many times.... but! now that I have the tools to know how to technical achieve scenes... studying films may actually contain some worth now! haha

One of the films that has always HAUNTED me was Agnieszka Holland's The Secret Garden. Recently I have really really wanted to be able to capture her ability to transfix an audience. There are some eerie and compelling nuances to her work.

So I am breaking down one of my favorite scene from the movie. Celtx has this AWESOME storyboarding section of the app that allows you to import photos and sketches and storyboards shots and notate them. So! I watched the scene through, doing screen grabs of each shot movement and/or change and then imported all the photos like a storyboard!

I've already noticed something!!! Holland uses the camera like a character. Camera movement is motivated throughout the scene by the scary and intimidating environment that Mary, the main character, finds herself in. A noise at her bedroom door! The camera whip pans to the door as Mary turns to hear the noise... The camera stands away from her, gliding across the room, leaving you to pick apart the frame, looking for the thing! the thing that made that scary noise. Its brilliant. I know a lot of directors use some of these techniques, yet Holland and Roger Deakins!! (who shot this film, so of course... amazing camera work) uses them in a much more intuitive and deep way. Nothing seems a device or calls attention to itself, but simply underlies the story. The reverses are seamless! She stitches the visual language together so neatly. The lenses and frames are chosen carefully. Very cinematic, showing the large, dark spaces off. The shots pay attention to putting you smack dab into this mystery and lonely world, exactly the fantasy world you want to explore and fill your darkest imagination with...

In addition, the sound design, which I noted while watching, is subtle but hangs in the air.. like that eerie feeling. The moans of the thing roaming the house leave you uneasy.

I have just complied the shots! so I will have to let you know what I find.. but every detail counts.

For example:

There was this one scene in The Ice Storm that stuck me so hard, because it was so subtle but it created so much feeling. It was a scene where the wife character was consoling her husband, who had gotten so drunk that he had been sitting on the bathroom floor, ready to spring for the toilet. It had been a terrible party they had gone to that night, and not what they bargained for at all. In fact, in addition and even before they had come to the party, they had been second guessing their marriage... but the hell they just gone through had bonded them closer to together.

She says, "I'll talk to you in the morning," as she leaves the room and pulls the door to....

almost....

closed.

End scene, right?

No.. her hand lingers there. Only her arm and hand can be seen in shot at this point, casually clasping the door knob. Her husband within has been mostly obscured by the door. Then she goes back... the door reopens slightly, her hand hesitating, and then finally, makes up her mind leaving the door midway between open and closed.

Why did Ang Lee do this? I puzzled and puzzled... I think he knew that we, the audience, wanted them to fall back in love. He wanted us to be rooting for that door to be reopened.. for her to have something more for her to say to him. In fact, that was what I was hoping for. I was compelled in that scene by the question of whether or not that would happen. Whether or not it was over, whether I would get to see the reconciliation which Lee, in the end, denied me.

Its questions like this... with depth of that caliber in the context of all the carefully construct moments before it, that keep you watching. The unpredictability and lack of formula.

Ang Lee, you are genius.
the seattle opera is putting on a production of madame butterfly.
I wish I could go....
Instead I checked the cds out from the library


Monday, March 21, 2011

Robert McKee is a man after my own heart.



How does this man manage to read my mind? How does he manage to sum up thoughts I have been having... mention things I have been struggling with?

Is he and I too idealistic? Is this sort of thing able to be a reality?
He is the expert!! That is what makes me excited.
Robert McKee!
YOU are so big picture! thank you. tell me about the roots. Where story starts. How my favorite movies are so compelling. I don't want some common sense analyzation or surface level "tips and tricks to sell your script!!" I want you Robert McKee and your underlying archetypes.. yes! yes! yes!
not only will you help me make my own work shine, you will make my daily struggle with clarity and my screenplay coverage writing skillz 100% better. I feel it in my bones.. in my heart.

Awesome!!!









Monday, March 7, 2011




Today was my first official commute from my new place to and from work.
Best thing ever! So close.

Filled my cupboards with food!! so excited to cook and to live here .. my own place!

Pace myself. Yes. I need to have some fun.

How can I maximize myself? How can I have more to go around?
I need to do so many things and be so many people. I need to be a cook and a house cleaner. An assistant and a director in training. I need to be more than I have ever been. To be completely challenged. I want some good people in my life that love me and I can love in return.
I want to map out all the parks in the Seattle area and all the beaches and hang out at all of them. I want to play tennis and go running and see Shakespeare. I am going to go see Bruce Lee's grave for sure!
Seattle is my oyster. I am going to make you awesome.! Capitol Hill is my oyster.
People watching up here is AWESOME. So many interesting people and faces. So exotic and different.

I will have to tell you want happens!!!

um... new looks <O> <O>