i love the scott pilgrim soundtrack.

ShadowCatcher // WEEK 1

This week was a week of my latest endeavor: working for Seattle based production company ShadowCatcher. I have been extremely blessed to get a job in Seattle and with friends from my internship. This opportunity has been awesome! and so far fun. I really enjoy being in the production office everyday with new challenges and learning more indepth about the ins and outs of post production as well as distribution.

ShadowCatcher is working on a number of projects but biggest ones in their repertoire are the feature film "Outsourced" and the feature documentary, "A Not So Still Life" about the well known glass artist, Ginny Ruffner.

You may heard of the show "Outsourced" which is on NBC's thursday comedy line up and you may have notice in that show the credits of Executive Producers Tom Gorai and David Skinner, those are my bosses. With NBC's acquisition of "Outsourced" adapted into a television show, the "Outsourced" film is hoping to get some attention and sales. The film has been currently totally self distributed and this new attention to it has caused some more demand for the movie. You can stream "Outsourced" the film on Netflix.

"A Not So Still Life" is in the distribution process and has been well received by the artistic community. It is a very inspiring film for any aspiring artist and Ginny Ruffner herself is completely compelling and winning. Her determination and her unique spirit do seem to shine through the screen during the film. We currently are working with that film for film festival submission and anything could happen.

Distribution is one of the more challenging and brute work parts of filmmaking, in my estimation. I can't imagine how many films have made only back burner because of lack of advertising or timing. How many amazing projects have I never even heard of? I hope to learn as much as I can and glean how to be more successful at marketing and pitching my films. It seems that a lot of Hollywood is interested in films that are known winners and sellers but I think the most interesting films are completely different.. you just have to figure out how to convince an audience of that.

ShadowCatcher is partially an amazing place to work because of the place that it is. Situated up in an old apartment building on Capitol Hill, I love everything about the building. The smell of it, the style of the old carpet, the creaky steps.
I love the wooden floors and the white molding on the walls. My boss, David Skinner, has hung a collection of Native American photography on the walls that are spectacular. I've started to wonder if the photos were taken by Edward Curtis, know as Shadow Catcher by some tribes he photographed. He took over 40,000 photos
of 80 American Indian tribes. Shadow Catcher seems like an appropriate name for a filmmaking company. Not only the space but the working environment is team oriented and getting good work done in the spirit of making and cultivating working relationships that work because they are valued. From my perspective this makes ShadowCatcher a great and happy place to work.

Being in Seattle is being home and that is nice for now. Working for ShadowCatcher is only a temporary job so we will see what happens in terms of staying here but for now it is good to be home and to be out of Tennessee.



My friend Annea and I went out on Friday night. She is fun. She is weird. She makes me really happy.. for my previous assumption is that I was the weirdo but together she makes me feel normal, and spontaneous enough to be weird if I want.
You would find us walking and talking down some downtown Seattle street..
We are dicussing our plans to open a silkscreening and art collective shop, that will probably never happen because we both don't know our plans and probably soon will find out that starting a business is harder than you might think, but it doesn't matter. Seattle was never a place I got to explore in my youth and now that I am old enough to be out this late on a Friday night, we decide to go down to The Baltic Room in Seattle to have a drink. Nothing more nothing less. We sit under the dim lit lounge lights as she sips her jack and soda and I sip my coke and rum. We talk about love (( and how in love she is )) and endeavors and exciting life prospects..

I like constructing myself. I like choosing who I am. I like that I am in charge. I am the sole creator of my likes, my dislikes, who I love and who I dislike, what I need and what I can learn, parts of me I want to work on and other parts that I don't care are unorganized and messed up. I really like that no one else has any part of that piece of me. I am in charge of my relationship with God ((and if I even believe in a God)) and my happiness and relationship with myself.
Sometimes we judge ourselves more than others ever have.
I think, if you have created yourself to be an individual you love, people can only stop you if you let them..

I hope, for my future self and my future filmmaker, that that is what I am doing right now.

today at work my friend offered me a tootsie pop
I notice the Indian (( er native american )) shooting the star on my wrapper
and I wondered about the legend that if you found on of those
you won a free tootsie pop..

I researched a little bit and found that some how this idea
didn't even come from any shadow of truth.

never has been or ever was a promotion by tootsie of this nature.
but the legend has grown so much that if you send in your
tootsie wrapper to the company they will send you
a copy of the "the legend of the wrapper".. a self writ story of how
that legend came to be..
so the legend lives on

I might send mine in and see what happens.



today me and my friend are going to meet and discuss starting a handmade and silkscreening company!
I'll let you know what happens with that.

And! soon we will have guest writer and co-editor Chelsea Grimstad add her thoughts to the blog!

your earholes will be thanking you.

worth filling your computer to the brink.

thank you NPR
here

and

thank you Pretty Much Amazing
and
Local Natives
here

new songs. to LOVE.

new sufjan.

sums it up! phenominal .:.

what I believe 100%

as if culture wasn't sex saturated enough already

Sahale has to bring it up AGAIN

no church B.S. && no cultural B.S.

this
article
sums
up
so
perfectly
what
I
believe
about
sex

click here -->
sexy sex sexy sex-ity sex.

responsiblity.

I got a job!
and in film production.:.hi-jinks and posts to come! this is the new chapter in the conquest of the beast we call life
glad to back home in Seattle and at ShadowCatcher Entertainment.
working on being a suave sexy business woman.
outfit of note as I navigate more mature waters... mmmm!


detail on the SACKS FIFTH AVE blouse
found at VALUE VILLAGE 2.99
!!


blue gap jeans.

blue flats from TARGET .:.


glad to back home in Seattle and at ShadowCatcher Entertainment.
working on being a suave sexy business woman.



detail on the 40's inspired NEXT ERA cardigan .:.






OUTfit of NOTE

beaded next era cardigan
navy blue and flower burst pattern sacks fifth ave blouse
gap jeans
blue xhilaration flats

TAKIN CARE OF BUSINESS

and to help me take care of business .:.
good bye dumb phone! got check those business emails and play your business angry birds!




song o' the day :: on the way home // thanks KEXP

loving his voice.

the only constant thing ..

is change.

And I definitely have.

closer.

today I feel pretty happy!
happier than a long time.

I'm proud to say that I think I've worked out my issues that had been plaguing me for 6 years.
I can never be free to do creative things until I'm happy and its takes a while to know yourself enough to get there.

I was watching 60 minutes the other night and Beyonce was on. I've always liked her woman power and vocal capabilities, but what turned me on the most was her maturity, her ambition, her accountability, and her competitiveness. She knows what she wants and where she is going and simultaneously made that super sexy. You could tell she was not a woman to take any bullshit or apologize for not taking it, yet that made her more sexy than not. She made valuing those things very alluring. She kind of became a role model for me and getting my life together. Where as peers might not want to take up responsibility and accountability yet, I am ready, head long ready to do so.. youth doesn't just mean hacking life and getting by, it is an opportunity to push yourself even further because you can accomplish more, and that is not stupid and definitely is fun.

Art is creative and ethereal and hard to pin point but it also needs to mean business and focus and hard work. Taking control of life is fun, it feels empowering, and it keeps you from worry and a focus on yourself. I was surprised by some of her words that made so much sense.. she said the first person in her life is herself. That seems so smart to me. You have to not only know yourself, but feed yourself.. be who you want to be.. and then real love for others can flow.
SO!


#1
Take control of my life! be proud of who I am. Be proud of the bad decisions because afterward I made the choice to learn from them and champion them into good decisions.


And later, seemingly contradictorily, she said that egos are not attractive. She is a boss on her turf but not an ego maniac. I think egotistical-ness comes from a lack of self respect and confidence so you have to feed off praise and adoration. But if you have followed step one! you don't need people to fulfill you, because, as she said in the interview, you are solely in competition with yourself, with being better than yourself and topping your expectations vs. others'. And I can say these things because I've most definitely fed off people to much dissatisfaction.


#2
Egos aren't attractive because it means you are focusing on the wrong things. Your potential is the goal. The work should satisfy you so who cares what the others think.


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I was thinking the other day about judgment.

Christianity isn't a genre for me. Yet people judge me by that label, so I almost have to strip it to be acceptable to some.

But people DO need to be judged. But not by the fundamental Christian outline.

People should be judged on whether or not they are a good PERSON. period.

Each to his own. Anything is sacred and anything can be evil. It depends on how shallow or stupid haha or how over analytical you are.. etc. .. to know what you need in life. Any anyone can need anything, its just whether you can respect others and respect yourself.. love others and love yourself at the end of it all.

We can't all assume that people are going to want the same things as us. No one is ever honest about their faults or where they are in life when you first meet them. You cannot fall in love or trust a friend as fast as you do in movies.. its unrealistic. Its not steady or sustainable.

So I'm tired of hearing that we shouldn't judge people. We should.. but not at once.. not like a book by its cover .. but over time and circumstances.. through the good and the bad.. and based on the scale of who they are as a PERSON disregarding the boxes that you try to fit them in.

And over time people can gain your love, your respect, and trust that is true and genuine. mmm.. and being there is such a good feeling. To know someone and be close to them in every aspect.

real fulfillment
comes from that -->

knowing yourself
challenging yourself
loving who you are // what you do
building deep friendships

living life deeper instead of wider or broader.

AWESOME

thank you, Beyonce