masters. pratice=perfect

I SHALL

//no. 1

be doing a lot of writing

//no. 2

be doing a lot of researching

and pulling apart films from the inside out.

I will master this.

So I was looking at Kickstarter today to see the other films that are being funded by the general public.

The film I want to make is about getting your soul stolen. Getting your soul stolen by other people. Particularly by letting a romantic relationship swallow you, or ideas swallow you, or the process of loosing innocence damage you.

Most of the films are romantic comedies that are meant to show moments that make you a twitter. Moments upon moments.. WITH NOTHING ELSE COMPELLING HAPPENING EVER.

I want to tell stories about things I know and have experienced.

Like walking down the street from a rock concert where you saw your ex-boyfriend making out with his new girlfriend. Frantically knocking on the door of a party where everyone is drunkinly dance humping each other so that you can slump into the back bedroom to cry in a safe place.

Like, lying on a mattress someone drug on to the roof and exchanging shallow stories at the stars.

Sitting in the parking lot at four AM talking with a friend about life, love, goals.. and a man come up and asks us if we have any "rock".

Watching the sun rise because you have stay up all night with someone you thought you could fall in love with.

I am good at intuition. I am good at moments.. breathing, falling, rising... real moments. I can feel a moment forming.

I am good at imagery. Collecting it and moving it and orchestrating it to tell a bigger picture.

But the story? That compels that feeds.. that intrigues. I don't want to make a quirky off beat comedy that is just filled with moments. I want to make a classic. A film to be remembered. A film that everyone relates to. A film that has something to say while it does something too.

In all the films I saw. I noticed that it wasn't the visuals that necessarily caught my eye. Dead story and dead performances..... make that gorgeous image dead and ugly .. period.

I'm tired of candy wrappers with out the candy inside. I'm tired of gazing at pretty images and that being all there is. I'm tired of looking at my own images and seeing that. I want something real.. something dirty.. something not afraid to take chances. Something adept and in-tune and paced well and not rushed.. but a quiet storm.. that takes the senses.. that causes you to forget this space for another authored one.

I want to feel as inspired to watch my own stuff as the movies that compelled me as a kid.

I need a story. I need a good one.

some recent artistic endeavors. yay!

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-kevin drew

Janelle Monae is the shizz

from the website www.booooooom.com

Beck’s Record Club

Beck’s Record Club is a one of my favourite projects on the internet right now. A cast of musicians gather and record an album in a day, and the videos are rough, and unrehearsed, and sometimes incredible.

Watch a few of the videos below!

Record Club: INXS "Kick" from Beck Hansen on Vimeo.

INXS – “Kick” – St. Vincent + Liars + Os Mutantes>

Record Club: Skip Spence "Books Of Moses" from Beck Hansen on Vimeo.

Skip Spence – “Books of Moses” – Feist + Jamie Lidell + Wilco

Record Club: Yanni "Keys To Imagination" from Beck Hansen on Vimeo.

Yanni – “Keys to Imagination” – Thurston Moore (Sonic Youth) + Tortoise

rants. for you though!

gosh,

I started an eharmony account.

and boy. when I rated spirituality as important I did mean that I wanted to meet people like this:

what is the most important thing in your life:

JESUS!

what are you passionate about

JESUS

and

PRAYING!!

what activities do you enjoy:

OUTREACH and EVANGELISM

what are the 5 most important influences in your life:

JESUS

the Bible

God

the 10 Commandments

and

CHURCH!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yet!

at the same time

I don't want someone who is

how many dates is it???

oh yeah, 4 until you HAVE to sleep with me.

"If I don't get laid.. forget us being together.."

contrived and selfish peer pressure

Can't their be a middle ground? Can't their be people that live driven from within.. that just live without worry.. without so much s-t-r-i-f-e. With an understanding of the world as a whole.

Who go with the flow. Have some spontaneity. Live life with open wonder.. yet a developed and mature sense of self?

Sometimes I feel too complicated.

If I had a genre .. secular or religious.. it seems life would be so much easier, but then I would have to leave my personality and brains at the door.

Well, whoever you may be.

smart

sexy

spiritual

willing to sleep with me and doesn't believe he is going to hell if he does

willing to wait to sleep with me if I am not ready

self-assured

goal-oriented

good decision making

non black-and-white

deep relationship seeking

life enjoying

spontaneous

responsible

thought provoking

man

I hope you exist.. because I will wait for you.

and you will be intensely precious

lets say

time will tell

if I believe in you or not.

quit hanging out with the Easter bunny and Santa Claus and come find me.!!

"If I let you in,

I'll just want

out."

# one trait I want to aspire to is: to be counted on. without a shadow of a doubt.

a follow-through girl. a steady, trustworthy girl.

celebration, FL.. creepy?

I just heard there was the first ever recorded murder in Disney created perfect town Celebration, Florida near their DisneyWorld Park.

Is it just me or the whole place just really eerie and creepy?

two new.

I've seemly-ing broken into this year with very little new music, and now at the end I am discovering all the good music of the year.

Two new bands that I just got to listen at top volume in my car are:

GLASSER which is the code name for Cameron Mesirow, who was inspired by "a midnight vision of a figure hovering over water."

I don't really know how to describe it, but if you liked the tunes of School of Seven Bells you love Ms. Mesirow.

Check out these two songs from her new album apply.

I think its like if Le Loup and Anne Clark had a baby.

+++++

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Then recently I hit across a band that is not totally the type of sound I am used to being into. Its kind of a fusion album is headed up by Daniel Lanios, who is a well know album producer who has produced the work of artists such as Bob Dylan, Neil Young, Peter Gabriel, Emmylou Harris, and Willie Nelson. He is best know for his collaboration with Brian Eno for a lot of the U2 albums including The Joshua Tree.
The other half of the band is vocalist, Trixie Whitley, who is daughter of Chris Whitley an American blues singer songwriter and guitarist.

I can't believe Trixie Whitley is white. That is all I have to say. In fact, I didn't know she was white until I researched her for this article. Check out this performance..
The band is called Black Dub.

live mt. rainier.

what the mountain looks like right now. gorgeous.

you can always see it here

conquerors!

I was think today
about how much value I find in others.

Last night I was talking with my boss and he had many
encouraging and kind words about my work

plus strategies I should pursue to make my career dreams blossom.

He sees more in me then I did in that moment. But through

his eyes I started to see someone who could really become something.

A defense mechanism I have always used is to put my expectations of myself

low. To demoralize my efforts as an effort to look alright if I fail.

I've now been told twice how immature that is.

Thinking that way is just as annoying to others as acting puffed up and over confident.

People want you to seize the moment, to claim it and know that you can

be counted on to rock it! Faith in yourself that you are that person who can

do it better than anyone else! Not for yourself but for objective awesomeness!

Faith: belief that is not based on proof

Sometimes I think that we need a little faith in ourselves.

I started to believe in myself again. I started to feel strong in my
abilities. Feeling strong in having a contribution to the world.
Its not so much that my self-value is locked in money or fame
but its locked in contributing something and others seeing it
as valuable.

I started to think. Why did I have to wait for permission to feel this way?

Why do I feel miserable and like a failure if others don't obviously affirm it and see it as worthy?

As soon as I heard it from someone else's lips, I felt like I could
conquer the world!

Action starts with belief and I think that sometimes that only I have cut myself down.

right out of the gate I don't believe or have faith.

The world wants people who are confident.

The world wants people who are strong.

The world wants people who don't blend in. who are different.

The world wants people who are courageous.

The world wants people who know what they rock at and run with it!

Passionately and without looking back.

Without second guessing

And without remorse or self-deprecation!

Don't be arrogant people!

But know what you are good at and hold your head up high doing it.

Sure you may not be good at somethings, and that will keep you humble

enough..

but for God's sake!! run with the things that you are amazing at and conquer!

go forth and rock, my friends!!!