Being a Woman

Being a woman is never so alive and vibrant as when you are in a relationship. 
There are some new things I have learn about myself in contemplation and thought about what has been going on in my life the past weeks.


I loved feeling womanly!

I may have ambitious dreams and goals but I love a man who can see me as old fashioned and womanly. I want to be able to be a empowered, modern woman without losing that traditional part of my womanhood. I love preparing a good meal or the satisfaction of a well cleaned living space (still working on that :/) And I love a guy who sees me that way. Not in a chauvinist pig-- women are beneath me way -- but in that they see me as a part of a team. I like the comfort of some traditions. It makes me feel loved and like I am able to give love to someone else too.

Being a strong woman can sometime mean being happily single. (wamp wamp) Its good to take a break, step back and realize that you are the one who gives you true self-esteem. You will never find that outside of yourself.

I love being able to give myself the love I need! 

Day by day I am learning that I am becoming a strong woman by loving myself. Road blocks and hurt are only a path to discovering that more every day.

So I am taking time to tell myself:

You are not only beautiful but you are radiant. 

When I am loving myself I shine, I am uniquely beautiful. Always opt to shine. It feels good to be your best self. Yes, many girls are pretty, sometimes prettier.. but strive to be beautiful in confidence without pride, compassion without doormat-ism (working on this), and love with commitment.

You are elegant. You have edge style and class. 

When I am loving myself my natural graces appear. I am edgy and dress with strength because I know I am a precious gem.

You are a strong person.

When I am loving myself, I take responsibility and embrace my work ethic. I have faults but I am going to forgive myself for them and work hard to be better. When I give myself grace I can extend it to others. I can be more compassionate while still having strength.

When I look at who I really am, I am a true gem. Someone just needs to truly get to know me to know my strength. And someone needs to recognize how valuable those traits really are. I don't need to compete with others to find my worth because I know my value.

All that all of this means is, you can trust me. I am going to construct a person that you can trust and count on absolutely.. Even if it means becoming brutally honest with myself about how I can improve.

I have my faults and I am trying to forgive myself and work on them extremely hard so that I can do that better and better.

Thank God life is a journey :) Even if no one can see or give you props for the journey you took, its no less worthwhile for the person that you become at the end.