Guts = Glory

When you feel crunchy and scruffy and beat down on the exterior, you need to always remind yourself of the things that will always light you from the inside out. 

That is what the world will truly be attracted to.

Your guts are your glory!

I've been thinking a lot about what I want to become more healthy. Inside and outside.

I think that I have engaged in a lot of unhealthy (well, not shockingly unhealthy but not amazing) behavior because of the stress and anxiety of my mom's illness, the last large break up I had, and the loss of my job and redirection of my life.

I want to be better, because I want to like myself more and more and feel deserving of the good stuff that comes my way. I don't want to self-sabotage any more.

Here are some of my goals:

x Get my minimal wardrobe together

I need to make space in my life to be more mobile. I have way too much stuff. I want to prioritize quality and mobility in the next two years. More freedom and more satisfaction with the things that surround me.

x Get rid of and organize my stuff -- reduce by 50%

I have been miserable wallowing in too much stuff. I want to reduce and upgrade what I have by 50%. Upgrade to better quality stuff that I can really use for years.

x Exercise more -- start an exercise regime

I know I will feel much better if I exercise 3x's a week. I need to find running routes and start using my bike. Find a place to do yoga.

x Become fluent in French

GO to conversational groups, take classes and work on vocab, reading, and study,

x Start writing -- get a short story published

I really wan to write and get a story published. I really want to start telling stories again. I am going to start really small and then work up to bigger more elaborate stories.

x Start painting again. Finish two pieces. Learn to paint with oils!

Making art and expressing myself has given me great personal joy. I need to start doing it again!! I can get so wrapped up in it that the world and its troubles melt away!

x Finish my medical assisting course work and get a JOB!

I really need to prioritize myself in this way. I want a good job with good pay and I want stability. I need to find it for myself. I really want to do something I care about and make a real contribution to the world -- I want to love my work.

x Watch more GOOD movies and listen to more GOOD music. 

I've almost forgotten what its like to listen to a new song  I love! I haven't explored the many movies out there. I need to get on it and enjoy culture again.

x Cook more healthy and amazing food

Find some amazing new dishes to add to the rep. Lean new cooking techniques. Eat more whole foods. Learn how to poach an egg. Learn the art of creating great stocks and sauces!