Notes on Blindness

life verse

That you are here—that life exists and identity, That the powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse. 

-Walt Whitman

Chu Sen Ling - The Bermudas

Awesome, awesome song.

BEST of 2013

Indie Jewelry Finds

With all the internets of the world at my fingertips, you think it would be easy to make excellent finds in the world of fashion. But if it isn't too expensive, its ugly... or if it is affordable and good looking its hard to find. So here are my favorite indie jewelry shops that boast both non-ugly and affordable jewelry for the hip and modern gal or woman.

#1. Ornamental Things

Oooo.. ahhhH! Found these favorite friends on the annual trip to Bumbershoot here in Seattle. This shop from Austin, Texas boasts some pretty trinkets.

#2 Amano Trading Post

Just found this, and thought I haven't ordered anything from it, it seems to have some good promise! It has three jewelry categories: Tribal, Old Timey, and Curiosity Cabinet.

#3  And some various awesome etsy shops :)

For all your minimal jewelry needs:
https://www.etsy.com/shop/MinimalVS

Feeling cutesy?
https://www.etsy.com/shop/mossandmirror

Old School Glamour
https://www.etsy.com/shop/BijouxSandrineDevost

Bohemian
https://www.etsy.com/shop/BrianneCossette?page=1

Bjork-esque
https://www.etsy.com/shop/eried?ref=l2-shopheader-name


More to come, I'm sure!

20 Something Cookery // Light Snack

As a busy 20 something aspiring professional, you are working hard.. making only a little money so sometimes the quality of your life can feel strain and stressed. I have found in these moments, doing something nice for yourself makes all the difference. Everyone has to eat so the best way to improve and boost the quality of your life is to feel fit and good by eating foods that make you happy and healthy.

As I have tried different things and experimented with the not-so-ordinary cooking to treat myself, I have learned a lot about simple and delicious solutions that anyone can make and enjoy!

For my new SEGMENT look for 20 Something Cookery categories! (Ooo! I'm starting to write again!) I want to talk about the tips and trick I have learned and document my cooking and experimenting process .:.

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Sometimes when I am on the run I need a post work, pre-dinner snack. Friends meeting up on weekends often want to meet late, but when winding down from work sometime I find myself starving. Instead of shoveling food in my face only to go out and eat a second time I whip up a little snack. Instead of munching on chips or cookies I tried something new and simple post work.

All the ingredients I use for my recipes I will reuse throughout my other posts so you can see how buying a basic set of good, quality ingredients will last you a long time and give you your moneys worth. Sometimes odd ingredients are puzzling to figure out how to use again, I want to show you how so you can justify the sometimes pricer first purchase.

DELICIOUS CAPRESE STYLE Half Sandwich

In Italy the caprese is a popular type of salad, simply made with mozzarella, basil and tomato. With these modified basic ingredients I decided to make a small open faced sandwich.

Ingredients:

Beef Summer Sausage 
Fresh Basil
Tomato
Fresh Mozzarella
Whole Wheat Thin Cut bread
Maille Honey Dijon 

Cut three thin slices of summer sausage and fry them in a pan. Toast your bread. I love Dave's Killer Bread because of how much flavor it has. Cut some thin slices of fresh mozzarella. You can find the best mozzarella with the feta and other specially cheeses. When the toast is done, thinly spread on some french honey dijon and stack the beef summer sausage, cheese, tomato and basil. ENJOY! So simple and so good.

Clean up is a snap. Just make sure to wash out the frying pan immediately and wrap up the meat, cheese, basil and tomato. :)!!

my miley

my miley cover
that is all!

adventures in loving yourself while being poor

So, you may not know, but in February I quit my job. For reasons I shall not go into detail about. Needless to say, it was a bad situation. A decision made on desperate terms given the current economic climate.

So, I have been very poor while scrounging for film work. Seattle is a hard nut to crack.
But ultimately it is my home, and I really have just found an awesome group of filmmakers that I fit with.

Its funny, while being poor and feeling crazy because of the lack of stability (which terrifies me!!).. I really have not been happier since moving into Seattle.

Its funny how the things that we fear most are usually the things that make us happiest or raise our self esteem.

1. Working at a job that hurts you and your self esteem
--Security in a pay check

vs.

2. Scary unemployment/freelancing and scrapping it.
--Loads of happiness and self esteem but  A LOT of initial fear.

A lot of stuff has been going down like that in my life.
I think that when you take a risk and do something you fear --- face a demon in a lot of ways.. you can also proud of that achievement when it blossoms. The fact that you stared your fears down and decided that you would face them to be happier and love life more. To love yourself more.

Really, you only have one shot at life. And more than the easy way out.. there is the quality way through life. Sometimes harder but with great dividends and A LOT of self-respect along the way.

This was dinner for me tonight.

And I was thinking, Sahale! How can you truly love yourself when you have reduced yourself to such a lack of the luxuries of life!

And then I realized, that pathetic portion of rice-y gruel represented freedom from an oppressive occupation, freedom to work on my own projects, and open doors to build the career and life that would never be possible otherwise.

I'll take it!

The Smiths

On being single

I have been listening to a lot of Beyonce.

That is what single means apparently.

Especially when the one you loved is with someone else. It hurts.

And only Beyonce seems to know how much.


Been trying to be productive. Working on my video reel. Everything I have ever made, I dislike. I don't like one thing I have made anymore.

Its not a great feeling

Its okay though! Because I am on a journey of ultimate pursuit. Its progress toward the goal. To be great, on some level. Unforgetable. Not for applause. Whether or not there is an audience. Fearlessly and bravely forward.

I do have baggage right now. I am willing to admit it. But that is always the way it is, if we are honest about it. Being honest with yourself about where you are at is different depending on if you know you will always be that way or if you are going to make a change.

I want to make a change.

But I have to be honest with myself.

I have never been truly emotionally available with my relationships.

Okay, I know that now. I have shut down any truly intimate moment. Or maybe I never got comfortable enough with someone to be intimate. I would love to think that is true. But I could work more on the capacity to be intimate with someone.

Maybe its that I don't really trust guys. When I gave my heart to my first love, my innocent naivety was a perfect zone for ultimate destruction of trust. Absolute trust in someone who isn't trustworthy is a recipe for disaster.

So now I am taking the time to make it right.

I'm optimistic.

I've forgiven the boy that hurt me. I've forgiven myself.

Life is a journey. With some time.. I'm sure I'll get there.

Being a Woman

Being a woman is never so alive and vibrant as when you are in a relationship. 
There are some new things I have learn about myself in contemplation and thought about what has been going on in my life the past weeks.


I loved feeling womanly!

I may have ambitious dreams and goals but I love a man who can see me as old fashioned and womanly. I want to be able to be a empowered, modern woman without losing that traditional part of my womanhood. I love preparing a good meal or the satisfaction of a well cleaned living space (still working on that :/) And I love a guy who sees me that way. Not in a chauvinist pig-- women are beneath me way -- but in that they see me as a part of a team. I like the comfort of some traditions. It makes me feel loved and like I am able to give love to someone else too.

Being a strong woman can sometime mean being happily single. (wamp wamp) Its good to take a break, step back and realize that you are the one who gives you true self-esteem. You will never find that outside of yourself.

I love being able to give myself the love I need! 

Day by day I am learning that I am becoming a strong woman by loving myself. Road blocks and hurt are only a path to discovering that more every day.

So I am taking time to tell myself:

You are not only beautiful but you are radiant. 

When I am loving myself I shine, I am uniquely beautiful. Always opt to shine. It feels good to be your best self. Yes, many girls are pretty, sometimes prettier.. but strive to be beautiful in confidence without pride, compassion without doormat-ism (working on this), and love with commitment.

You are elegant. You have edge style and class. 

When I am loving myself my natural graces appear. I am edgy and dress with strength because I know I am a precious gem.

You are a strong person.

When I am loving myself, I take responsibility and embrace my work ethic. I have faults but I am going to forgive myself for them and work hard to be better. When I give myself grace I can extend it to others. I can be more compassionate while still having strength.

When I look at who I really am, I am a true gem. Someone just needs to truly get to know me to know my strength. And someone needs to recognize how valuable those traits really are. I don't need to compete with others to find my worth because I know my value.

All that all of this means is, you can trust me. I am going to construct a person that you can trust and count on absolutely.. Even if it means becoming brutally honest with myself about how I can improve.

I have my faults and I am trying to forgive myself and work on them extremely hard so that I can do that better and better.

Thank God life is a journey :) Even if no one can see or give you props for the journey you took, its no less worthwhile for the person that you become at the end.