amen

found at bad animals, seattle

fashion icons.

women to be like..


kate moss

drew barrymore

karen o

alison mosshart

chloe sevigny

bip ling

sofia coppola

agyness deyn

marina diamandis

sooo...

I tore apart my room today.

Trying to get myself and my life in order for whatever may end up happening next.

found some cool stuff in the process..

happy to find so much Sahale-ness all around me. haha

SURE. im game.

boyfriend? X

hm..

hobbies? X

..

friends? X

events? X

good then.

work then?

we shall be good friends..

I shall name you George, office desk,

so that when people ask where I am going

they will think I'm visiting a totally awesome

friend instead of going back to work..

OR

that I'm hanging out with this super sweet

hunky George guy till 10 PM in the evening..

instead of editing film footage.

good then.

I have no life, so film..

duck, duck, goose!

you are it.

I wouldn't call myself ambitious.. just

differently lifestyled.

God! you asked for it.

I have nothing else to do, so the message is

for me to focus on film.

I want to be the best at every challenge

I face.. but since working is all I've got,

I am going to be the BEST DAD-GUM

OFFICE COFFEE MAKER and

packing peanut disposer AND

random PACKAGE mailer

ERRAND runner GIRL, and

OFFICE SUPPLY purchaser,

this film company has ever seen

and the best assistant to the assistant

of Tom Gorai in recent history.

more filmic pursuits and updates to

come..

love,

SAHALE

being good people

I'm starting to believe that God intended us to be good people.. not good Christians.

I always had this perception that you needed to be a good Christian.

What does that pertain?

Well, my friends, being a good Christian means dotting your I's and crossing your T's in study of the Bible and making sure NOT to ever break any rules. It arbitrary. You do it because God told you to.

But being a good Christian, in that case can make you a worthless... no good for nothing person.

Seriously, self flagellation and self hatred?

Denying yourself?

That is one possible extreme.

Judging others and forcing them into your paradigm another.

Naivety about how the world works and how it interacts.

The more experience I have gain about the world and the more that I have lived in the world and been ambitious and excited about excelling, the more I realize that I would rather be a good person than a good Christian any day.

Success, I know now, is pinned on: A. relationships, and deep ones. Shallow, uncaring, unconcerned relationships are useless in my opinion, and all deep relationships are based on trust and honesty.

I'm not talking about telling the truth and fessing up to being the one who "chopped down the cherry tree"

I'm talking about representing to others.. the world.. who you really are. Being genuine.

Being genuine is so valuable.

AND B. hard work. reliable work. trustworthy work..

Being empowered and proud to be who you are.. is so powerful. Because others know what you stand for.. that they can rely on you. That you can be trusted 100%. Personally and professionally. They don't have to see the future because they know what you are going to make happen for them.

This allows you to be successful. To make things happen.. to open doors.

Being that person though is hard.

You can't do it for you.

You can't do it for them.

I have found you have to do it for something bigger.

Maybe its the principle of the matter.

Maybe its to make something bigger than yourself.

This is where I feel like Christianity fits.

We already have something bigger to serve. To force us to be better.. to be AMAZING people. To stand out from the crowd. Because we are doing these great human and tangible things for something way bigger. Its beyond us.

That doesn't mean that we have go out and be missionaries better and help people better. That might not be our gift.

That means that we do anything and everything we are talented at, at the top of our game.

We put fillings in teeth better.

We strive to fly planes better.

We make a better cellphone.

We build stronger relationships.

We want to take care of our bodies better.

We want to be the best grocery bagger ever!!

We want to make films better.Because we know we can be that better. We know it is in us to be gloriously amazing. We know because we know God gave us that potential.

It not about being righteous.. it is about being an AMAZING citizen of the world. The best example of human being that we can be and to keep trying to attain that everyday.. in everything we do.

Its not about whether or not we are doing things we should..

Its not about fulfilling other's expectations.. and falling in line.

Stoping our fooling around and being responsible.

It about being AWESOME, for ourselves. Being responsible because we can create and be SO much. Because we can have true happiness if we let go of getting high on skating through hard stuff.

We make life happen for us.

Sorry. I have found that happiness does NOT just happen. We have to grab it by the scruff of the neck, we have to force it into existence.. like every good thing that is created in life.

..

It doesn't mean Christians always do it better.

But what better motivation is there than to do it for a creator? Something so amazing and so powerful.

I'm not even sure where I stand with God. But I do want that.

It seems smart.

It seems punk rock.

And of all the amazingness I strive for its so much easier to suffer the hard lessons of life to know that you will be a better person for it.

That you can keep your eye on the bottom line: What our God-given ideal is,

and then strive for that.

What could be a more admirable goal?

masters. pratice=perfect

I SHALL

//no. 1

be doing a lot of writing

//no. 2

be doing a lot of researching

and pulling apart films from the inside out.

I will master this.

So I was looking at Kickstarter today to see the other films that are being funded by the general public.

The film I want to make is about getting your soul stolen. Getting your soul stolen by other people. Particularly by letting a romantic relationship swallow you, or ideas swallow you, or the process of loosing innocence damage you.

Most of the films are romantic comedies that are meant to show moments that make you a twitter. Moments upon moments.. WITH NOTHING ELSE COMPELLING HAPPENING EVER.

I want to tell stories about things I know and have experienced.

Like walking down the street from a rock concert where you saw your ex-boyfriend making out with his new girlfriend. Frantically knocking on the door of a party where everyone is drunkinly dance humping each other so that you can slump into the back bedroom to cry in a safe place.

Like, lying on a mattress someone drug on to the roof and exchanging shallow stories at the stars.

Sitting in the parking lot at four AM talking with a friend about life, love, goals.. and a man come up and asks us if we have any "rock".

Watching the sun rise because you have stay up all night with someone you thought you could fall in love with.

I am good at intuition. I am good at moments.. breathing, falling, rising... real moments. I can feel a moment forming.

I am good at imagery. Collecting it and moving it and orchestrating it to tell a bigger picture.

But the story? That compels that feeds.. that intrigues. I don't want to make a quirky off beat comedy that is just filled with moments. I want to make a classic. A film to be remembered. A film that everyone relates to. A film that has something to say while it does something too.

In all the films I saw. I noticed that it wasn't the visuals that necessarily caught my eye. Dead story and dead performances..... make that gorgeous image dead and ugly .. period.

I'm tired of candy wrappers with out the candy inside. I'm tired of gazing at pretty images and that being all there is. I'm tired of looking at my own images and seeing that. I want something real.. something dirty.. something not afraid to take chances. Something adept and in-tune and paced well and not rushed.. but a quiet storm.. that takes the senses.. that causes you to forget this space for another authored one.

I want to feel as inspired to watch my own stuff as the movies that compelled me as a kid.

I need a story. I need a good one.

some recent artistic endeavors. yay!

SHE's

tbtf

tbtfttbtf

tbtftbtftbtf

-kevin drew

Janelle Monae is the shizz

from the website www.booooooom.com

Beck’s Record Club

Beck’s Record Club is a one of my favourite projects on the internet right now. A cast of musicians gather and record an album in a day, and the videos are rough, and unrehearsed, and sometimes incredible.

Watch a few of the videos below!

Record Club: INXS "Kick" from Beck Hansen on Vimeo.

INXS – “Kick” – St. Vincent + Liars + Os Mutantes>

Record Club: Skip Spence "Books Of Moses" from Beck Hansen on Vimeo.

Skip Spence – “Books of Moses” – Feist + Jamie Lidell + Wilco

Record Club: Yanni "Keys To Imagination" from Beck Hansen on Vimeo.

Yanni – “Keys to Imagination” – Thurston Moore (Sonic Youth) + Tortoise

rants. for you though!

gosh,

I started an eharmony account.

and boy. when I rated spirituality as important I did mean that I wanted to meet people like this:

what is the most important thing in your life:

JESUS!

what are you passionate about

JESUS

and

PRAYING!!

what activities do you enjoy:

OUTREACH and EVANGELISM

what are the 5 most important influences in your life:

JESUS

the Bible

God

the 10 Commandments

and

CHURCH!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yet!

at the same time

I don't want someone who is

how many dates is it???

oh yeah, 4 until you HAVE to sleep with me.

"If I don't get laid.. forget us being together.."

contrived and selfish peer pressure

Can't their be a middle ground? Can't their be people that live driven from within.. that just live without worry.. without so much s-t-r-i-f-e. With an understanding of the world as a whole.

Who go with the flow. Have some spontaneity. Live life with open wonder.. yet a developed and mature sense of self?

Sometimes I feel too complicated.

If I had a genre .. secular or religious.. it seems life would be so much easier, but then I would have to leave my personality and brains at the door.

Well, whoever you may be.

smart

sexy

spiritual

willing to sleep with me and doesn't believe he is going to hell if he does

willing to wait to sleep with me if I am not ready

self-assured

goal-oriented

good decision making

non black-and-white

deep relationship seeking

life enjoying

spontaneous

responsible

thought provoking

man

I hope you exist.. because I will wait for you.

and you will be intensely precious

lets say

time will tell

if I believe in you or not.

quit hanging out with the Easter bunny and Santa Claus and come find me.!!

"If I let you in,

I'll just want

out."

# one trait I want to aspire to is: to be counted on. without a shadow of a doubt.

a follow-through girl. a steady, trustworthy girl.

celebration, FL.. creepy?

I just heard there was the first ever recorded murder in Disney created perfect town Celebration, Florida near their DisneyWorld Park.

Is it just me or the whole place just really eerie and creepy?

two new.

I've seemly-ing broken into this year with very little new music, and now at the end I am discovering all the good music of the year.

Two new bands that I just got to listen at top volume in my car are:

GLASSER which is the code name for Cameron Mesirow, who was inspired by "a midnight vision of a figure hovering over water."

I don't really know how to describe it, but if you liked the tunes of School of Seven Bells you love Ms. Mesirow.

Check out these two songs from her new album apply.

I think its like if Le Loup and Anne Clark had a baby.

+++++

=======

Then recently I hit across a band that is not totally the type of sound I am used to being into. Its kind of a fusion album is headed up by Daniel Lanios, who is a well know album producer who has produced the work of artists such as Bob Dylan, Neil Young, Peter Gabriel, Emmylou Harris, and Willie Nelson. He is best know for his collaboration with Brian Eno for a lot of the U2 albums including The Joshua Tree.
The other half of the band is vocalist, Trixie Whitley, who is daughter of Chris Whitley an American blues singer songwriter and guitarist.

I can't believe Trixie Whitley is white. That is all I have to say. In fact, I didn't know she was white until I researched her for this article. Check out this performance..
The band is called Black Dub.

live mt. rainier.

what the mountain looks like right now. gorgeous.

you can always see it here